"ive never truly wanted to be myself. i dont look myself in the mirror and remember who i am
id rather not,anyways......
but this doesnt matter, it never mattered."

"you dont need to be anyone, you dont have to be anything
being real is for the fakes anyways, right monnie?"

i didnt want to agree with her, but after sitting on it i decided she was right

i hate looking at myself, she knows this, and yet she talks to me anyways
about every single thing wrong with me
i hate how she says it too, but shes so right

i cant live a lie anymore, i have to live for myself
its time for some fucking changes